Enjoy your time in hell.

,

I haven't wanted to be here for a long time.

I no longer want to feel the weight on my shoulders.

I'm sick.

I don't want your help.

I don't need your hep.

I just need to find an escape.

Memories haunt me.

flash backs over power my vision

Death speaks out to me.

I want it so bad.

People wont understand.

They cant understand.

the ones who do are above.

waiting for my arrival.

I'm confined in a cave.

Trapped and waiting for a way out.

Hands reach for me.

I'm to weak, or rather there not giving their all.

The courageous free girl I was,

months ago.

They got a hold of me, knocked me down.

We all say don't let them get to you but face it

its eating you alive.

remember the kid.

the heart breaker

the cheater

the bully

the rich kid

the poor kid.

The kids that destroyed you.

The friends you once had

the friends who took you for granted.

Is it eating you up?

I hope so.

Get swallowed into life

the stomach, the acid pit.

Burning you inside out.

The girl who had your back

your turn came and you sold her out

you stood in the shadows

watching them take stabs one at a time.

I blame you.

People say don't blame others.

that statement is very false.

Laws are blames/

We blame those for their wrong.

So confess your guilty

you did me wrong.

and so I blame you.

I blame you for not acting upon your instincts

for taking me for granted

for building your self up

and breaking me down.

I'm the loser;

your the cool kid.

that's how the story goes right?

Childish?

While I lay in my cave

I ponder over a way out.

whats a few more seconds of pain

I know myself,

I know you.

I know your strengths,

I know your weaknesses.

I know how to break you

But I'm just not pathetic enough.

God wants me.

I want him.

the heavens praise

and the clouds part

screaming my name

waiting for my rise.

I win.

Enjoy your time in hell.